So I’ve lost confidence in anything I do. Not been outside the house apart from swimming. Not employed to a preferred job. And all my decisions are backfiring all the time. Also sensing Parents disappointment because I’m a stubborn 23 year old.
I feel like my degree is useless, and my skills have no value.
I understand that wording choose into things can create a gray area and sometimes a back lash. When asexuality usually means just little or no interested or even phased by sexual attraction, and not about sexual behaviour.
Don’t get me wrong, in the past I’ve dated a few times and what not. Not for the desire for a sexual partner, but that for a life partner, in fact I have little regard for sex, I’d rather know someone better on a one to one basis. Call it ‘Mind Sex’, justing enjoying the company.
On the grounds of choosing to embrace this side of me, is mostly what I meant.
To the point that I have friends, guys and girls, talking to me about their relationship problems, because they know my point of view isn’t gender or sexuality specific. And from all this politics to maintain sexual partnerships, I’d rather forgo, and put my efforts else where, like getting 90% in a design degree, help design the new 2020 London Underground Trains.
Dividing up yourself into categories, among the different LGBTA subcategories, for myself is a waste of brain juice. Otherwise the abbreviation would be like LAGDAGABT (sorry for playing around with it)
Also I don’t understand why people have the need to make sexual advances all the time.
(And please take note, that this reply isn’t gender specific.)
So the current state of the Internet Youth population going on an explosion of mis-understanding, I felt a urge to stay silent on opinion, like always.
The the time I have voiced any opinion, I find those who mis-read the intensions to suit their own ideals, a growing trend. From that of “Equality of Racism” - the way that those who are ‘Privileged in Appearance’ take great offence on racial matters concerning their stereotype but constantly give it out and think nothing of it. Frankly it’s offensive to think that one is better than the other, to then proclaim that One shouldn’t upset the Status Quo.
Matters on Feminism. As a choice, I support it, but that of ‘Gender Equality’. Not this toxic form of Feminism that portray one side better than the other. ‘As a Choice’, being able to choose without concern for the gender distinction. My Mother’s opinion is likened to both gender can never be the same, Males can’t Birth a Child, Females can’t be as strong as the strongest of Males.
For one, Evolution, has depicted gender roles because of benefits in nurturing. ‘As a Choice’ people can be able to choose what they want to do, get the same opportunities, and not be ruled over by one side or the other. Not understanding the concept that some men love knitting and some women are blacksmiths, is just ignorant.
And these 2000, 3000, 5000 year old religion concepts are not helping.
I remember I time when at an interactive debate table at The Science Museum, being the only one out of 10 to support ‘Male Pregnancy’, I was insulted by a father at the table for supporting it, “it’s not natural” he said, I replied, what if the female can’t conceive because of medical problems, but this hetro-couple still want the whole baby making experience. He didn’t have an answer. So when this happens, what would happen to the concept of gender? Maybe a Holy War will break out because of this.
Though myself choosing to be an Asexual, I don’t think I have a say, as an observer of everything. Treating everyone as just a friend and equally the same, has gotten myself into situations that are uncalled for. Sexual attraction happens to be powerful, but having the will power to control your own body chemistry, is sometimes far stronger. Those will say ‘to live without, you’ll appreciate it more when you live with’, but I’ve always thought to myself that ‘to live without, you’ll understand what is Love’.
I don’t want to be harassed about not being in a relationship, I don’t want to be harassed about that ‘I need a girl’. All I want to do is to Design Beautiful Things and Swimming.
And for the time I do meet someone who mutually shares the interest of living with each other, in love, for the rest of the years of our short existence. Then I’ll welcome this in my life.
Rant over, now stop trying to disagree on how I live my life.
A Heart transplant. I think this should be common Knowledge
Give a young person a chance and they pass on it.
Young person sees the chance missed becomes something. Regrets it.
We’re a generation of idlers.